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I didnt know this, but until mooncake festival 2009. I realized, im pretty cool with myself handling all the 'my obscatcles'. Pretty tough handling my emotion, not letting it burst easily and im ok being alone, as a lone ranger for my journey of my 'book'.

Everybody is a book, whether the book travel far and long, or short and near is all about a person's record, memories and desire. I know i have my book inked for about chapter 20 by now.

Every other thing in my life is nothing but a chapter of my life why would i want it to stop my book from continuing. Pretty amazing that recently, i wanna do lots of things and learn lots of things. Maybe is a little late thinking it from now, but like many people say, is never too late, as long u start now. Well for me maybe in a month or two.

How did i get myself together? A little late but at least a start! I was lighting up my 'tanglongs' and hanging it, yea a tradition in my family is a must for the whole family to be together! Suppose to go to Barcelona, but for some reasons... i ditched myself... and then out of no where i started to create life related with candles like love, heat, arranging candles like a path of no where, all these act is out of blues, and didnt know i would do such a thing at least to me these symbolizes life.

So somehow my ignorance of 3 tanglongs turned out to be a wake up call. One of three tanglong caught on fire, burnt and felt on the ground. Without hesitation i took a few picture, while taking it, i realize thinking so much about life will ignore many things and sometime ignored the most important thing in fact it will burnt to ashes, it will never be found again. That is happiness. Throughout the whole night lighting up candles and tanglong, i was miserable, sad and desperate, but not to an extent where im suicidal. Please that will not cross my mind.


A book of me without noticing that im writing it till my death, and minor stuff in life will not stop me from continuing my journey of being happy go lucky. Every little bit of chapter in life will be inked in my book and my memory, but definitely will not stop me from continuing. Never! Thinking a lot and thinking a head and thinking far, some might say is a good thing but some said u think too much, what is the right answer? To me, there is no answer, as long as one thinks that there is no tomorrow i will try my best to accomplish whatever i can in life.

Is more like a moral value thing to me i learned from tanglong. Why is tanglong made of paper and in tradition light up with candles? I think simply want use to light ourself and show a clear path of our own journey.

With little obstacle along the way, avoiding it maybe challenging and difficult as one may tilt the tanglong too much and one wrong move whole tanglong caught on fire and ur lost, in fact will have to start all over again. But if one walk properly understanding the obstacle and handling it well, tilting the tanglong will be the least worry of completing the book.

Ask me again whether i regret to have a nightlife, my answer will be YES n NO, Yes i regret didnt enjoy myself that night and No if not i wouldnt find myself in a long lost journey of no where.